Chapter 6

Chapter 6

When I returned to the residential complex, I saw the two of them from a distance, locked in an embrace under a tree.

Xiao Jing’s eyes were red, while Su Kai stroked her face with tender affection.

The two of them were completely oblivious to their surroundings, kissing as if they couldn’t bear to be apart.

Even as I drew closer, they failed to notice me.

Between kisses, Xiao Jing spoke with a sob in her voice, “She’s going to be home from work soon. I have to go, don’t I?”

Su Kai paused for a moment. He didn’t say a word, but instead pressed his lips against hers again with fierce intensity.

I watched them silently. Although my body was in pain, my heart was surprisingly calm. I no longer felt the impulse to slap them like I had that night.

I even felt, ridiculously enough, like the villainous female supporting character in a romance novel, standing in the way of the male and female leads.

Their love was so difficult, and it was all because of me.

Six years ago, after a failed attempt on my part to steal a kiss, Su Kai would press my head down with sparkling eyes and say in a sultry voice, “But I want to.”

Six years later, Su Kai’s heart ached for another woman who was compromising herself for him, and he couldn’t even spare a glance for me after my miscarriage.

What exactly was the thing I had been so reluctant to let go of, the thing I had been guarding so desperately all this time?

Was it that unexpected first kiss on a rainy night? Was it the sweetness of a mutual secret crush? Was it the way I gave up everything to run to him in the middle of a heavy snowfall? Was it when he told me, “Shushu, I’ll be good to you for the rest of my life”?

Now, all those memories had finally been doused in bucket after bucket of ugly red paint.

They could never be wiped clean again.

I tilted my head back; there were no tears.

Suddenly, I felt that my breathing had never been as free as it was at this moment.

I finally understood.

So-called letting go, so-called falling out of love…

It really only takes an instant.

That night, I brought up the topic of divorce with Su Kai.

He froze for a second, then tugged at his tie, his face full of impatience.

“Can you stop making a scene?”

“You were the one who insisted on not getting a divorce no matter what. What are you trying to do now?”

He probably thought I was just looking for a reason to pick a fight.

I looked up at him and said quietly, “Don’t you want to divorce?”

He didn’t speak.

Enduring my physical discomfort, I continued, “Do you really have the heart to let her remain a mistress who can never see the light of day?”

Those words seemed to successfully provoke him.

“Fine, fine… let’s divorce! Since you’re willing, I couldn’t be happier.”

“Only, Lu Shu,” he looked at me, his tone devoid of any warmth, “don’t you regret it.”

How could I regret it?

I already had enough things to regret.

It was strange, though. I had always thought Su Kai wanted to escape this marriage even more than I did.

But a few days later, when I handed him the divorce settlement to sign, he hesitated for a long time before putting pen to paper.

“Have you really… thought this through?” He threw the pen down, a trace of irritability in his expression.

I nodded.

The division of assets between Su Kai and me was actually quite simple. The house and the car were both his pre-marital property. We had some savings, but not much; I only wanted half of those savings.

He had no reason not to sign.

Yet, it took him a full three days to finally sign the papers.

A month later, after handling all sorts of matters, I went with him to the Civil Affairs Bureau to go through the divorce formalities.

“Lu Shu,” now that the moment had truly arrived, the previous hostility had vanished. Instead, he confirmed with me over and over again, “Have you really thought this through? Once we divorce, we… will no longer be husband and wife.”

“Have you… really thought this through?” he asked again.

I suddenly found his behavior quite laughable.

He probably thought I was playing hard to get, or that I was using the divorce as a front to plot some new scheme to sabotage his relationship with Xiao Jing.

That was why my sudden agreement to the divorce made him feel uneasy instead.

But I truly didn’t love him anymore. I truly wanted to leave.

I didn’t want to stay for even another second.